The beginning of the week started off with much fun and frolicking, but not much submissiveness, or actual things accomplished at my house....ahem.. Why you ask ? Well I was having too much fun, and I knew that getting the minimum done would still be okay over here. TRUE not in the spirit of things. Not going to help ttwd. Anyway as of late, I have felt like I was married to this guy
So doing 'enough' to get by was okay, just as long as he didn't trip over something. Again, I KNOW.
The thing is, by doing this, I wasn't very happy with myself. It isn't in the spirit of what I / we are trying to accomplish here. Even if I am married to the guy in the picture above ( yes I am fully aware he is carrying a cane), I am to act accordingly if I want ttwd to flourish. My sadness continued as I read/heard stories of others who were being 'called' up on the carpet for their lack of 'proper' priorities this week. I wish I could elaborate, but they are not my stories to tell---the fact that my guilt was all consuming is all I suppose you really need to know . This made me fall back on tried and true methods. I did say tried and true, that does not mean helpful and healthy.
Yup. I once again got in with Distancing Dixie. We decided to head some where warm...emotional Hell. Turns out it is actually cold there- stupid lying travel agents! Barney eventually sought me out. Yay Barney- yes, - a little obvious that I had 'left' but at least he found me. He said that we were both too tired to talk right then, but we would the next day. Wow colour me impressed!
Only that talk never came. Once again life got in the way- not true actually, he PUT life in the way. So as you can imagine things just got better from there. I could describe it all, but you know, most have you have been on the highway to hell with your own version of Dixie. A picture is worth a thousand words anyway
So life. life. life...tears, tears tears. That brought us to Weds. which was supposed to be Role Affirmation, Maintenance Day- target practic -whatever. Only that didn't happen because our son was home from school We actually knew this in advance, so there was no real shock there. Once again we were supposed to talk- once again it didn't happen
Thursday...wow this is worse version of the 12 days of Christmas than the video I posted on my blog a few days ago. Life was threatening to get in the way again. Our son was going to be on TV so we waited for that to air. Barney had to deliver boxes for the Christmas hampers for the church, I had a hair appointment. All these things were spread out with just enough time in between to be annoying. Finally we a managed to at least talk.
The beginning of the conversation was getting us NO WHERE . It seemed to be the same discussion AGAIN
Once again I shut down. I KNOW already! I mentioned that we should just stop if this is too much for him. There was a lot of it is my fault...great now it is MY fault...Argh...
In the interest of discussing how we felt, not necessarily the reality of the situation, I told him that I didn't feel like I was a priority in his life- therefore our relationship was not either. That he chose to do a multitude of things the other day that were not important instead of having our discussion. Heck we still haven't discussed the subject that was in 'the big reveal letter' yet. There was a great deal of discussion about how and why I could feel this way. We talked about reading blogs and how I am to come to him, show him the blog and tell him how reading it made me feel. No we are not talking about comparing ourselves to another couple, but most of you out there know when things aren't quite where you want them to be, when you read someone's blog it can lead you in a direction you shouldn't go alone.
He in return told me how he felt when things were not done that I said were going to be. How hard it is to address them, because I seem distracted when he tries to talk to me when he comes through the door. I had mentioned that perhaps his timing is a little off to get the undivided attention that he wants, as he is 8 feet away at the door, and I am usually constructing dinner for 50, sorry 5, at the time.
We once again talked about him ACTUALLY noticing things- something that I didn't think he did, as he hardly speaks about it- in part due to the reason in the above paragraph.
It was then time for the spanking portion of our little drama. This time the belt was brought out..dun dun dun...or not..LOL...Barney did talk throughout most of this little adventure. Granted it was the equivalent of discussing the weather, but later in the day we hashed that out too.....not right after the spanking because...well... I ended in giggles again. HEY he started it this time! As he was whacking away, he asked how I was doing. How the belt was working. I said
"Well I am very warm",( I did actually have perspiration on my back) "..but probably not where you want me to be."
Barney then burst out into laughter, layed the belt down on my VERY swollen bum, and his head on my back.
Well and that is all I am going to write about as far as that is concerned...wink ...wink...wink...
So yes while Christmas shopping and all day yesterday I had a definite reminder of my meeting with the belt. Sheesh...like I needed MORE of a bubble butt! Anyway, next time apparently is going to go a bit different according to my husband.
He also dropped this little gem on me yesterday.
" So I think we'll find time for maintenance over the holidays, even with the boys home- they can go to a movie or something. You tend to get a little stressed around the dinner part of Christmas day- so we'll address that before the day, and hopefully that will help you remember to keep calm"
HUH? Maybe I am married to this guy
Time to get you visually away from my rear, and onto Christmas Cheer!
The Crown of Roses
1 oz. Crown Royal
1/2 oz. Amaretto
1 oz. Pineapple juice
1/4 oz. Cranberry Juice
3 dash(es) Angostura Bitters
Fill a cocktail shaker two-thirds full of ice and add all of the ingredients. Shake for approximately 15 seconds. Strain into a chilled cocktail glass and garnish with a maraschino cherry.
The Crown of Roses' deep color is inspired by the garland of roses presented in victory circle to the winner of the Kentucky Derby. The winningcombination of Crown Royal, amaretto, pineapple and cranberry juices allows the Crown of Roses to marry notes of cinnamon with refreshing fruit sweetness, which is rounded out by the classic taste of Crown Royal whisky
This is our pre-dinner Xmas drink around here. Classy like we are, we quadrupedal the ingredients and make it in a huge mason-type jar and shake it. We rim the glasses with Demerara sugar.
I don't like rye but I sure love this drink...Instant submission I'm certain!
Now for all of you out there still getting in the car with Distancing Dixie. You know how horrible it feels, turn the darn car around!
A hauntingly beautiful song, sung by another Canadian artist. This song spoke to me while Dixie set the cruise control. I didn't have a reason to feel the way the woman in the song felt, because I could reach out and touch my husband, if I just had the courage to do so. Thankfully he came and 'grabbed' me