I think I figured out something- I think..... I guess I'll just say this, and let you all see if it makes sense. As I was told, my emotions and my vulnerability were most likely warring it out with each other. Well it was said better then that- but you ( hopefully) get the idea.
Typical visual thinker that I am-->
My vulnerability made me feel naked. My brain was frantically searching for a blanket to cover up. My heart wanted to bask in the freedom of it all. Right now I'm not completely naked, but I feel like walking towards the nudist beach...(OH my goodness...I hope all this naked talk didn't get rid of
Things between Barney and myself are good. The smoke has cleared. The dust has settled. Things feel a bit different around here- but to put a finger on how, I am unsure. I'm just going to live and try not to over-think it....I know right? Gah...Willie is that growth?
Speaking of GROWTH.....
The holiday were kind of like this for me.... BAD eating habits, NO exercise...Boooooooooooo Willie!
Being sick the week over Christmas means this.
isn't really a factor...but this is something I need to keep in mind
and THIS too
Also I have exciting news-ish...For the sake of the blog let's just say we WON a trip. All 5 of us are going somewhere we most likely will never be able to go again. So I want to wear a bikini. I have 2 months to get there. Sure anyone of any shape and size can wear a bikini, and I'm never going to be Bo Derek. But I want to not feel so self conscious. Will this happen even if I achieve the perfect body? Meh, who knows? But my heart will be healthier in the long run so that is what is most important here...and to Barney....eeeek!
By the way...this is almost exactly like my bikini...I threw the Hello Kitty one in there for New Bea ( wink)
Basically I am throwing down the gauntlet! Rallying the troops and all that jazz! Time to get our GOOB back on! Lets get healthy ladies ( and any men who want to join) and see if we happen to get a better body (for ourselves not society) out of it!
Here is a really well done ad by Nike. Granted I don't have an athletic body, but I like how they examine the REAL female body