Friday was the start of a slew of days off for Barney. I was so excited. Too excited I suppose. Submissive Sally was out in full force too! Life was good. Finally some one on one, with out 2,3 and 4 in the house. He had mentioned to me earlier in the week that there were a few things we were going to discuss...as in actually talk about. Plus I was hoping--well you know what it is like with kids old enough to KNOW what is going on when Mom and Dad are MIA- and they were gone for 8 whole hours..* *wink**. NOT!
We did our errands in the morning, and I was feverishly hand sewing my #*%! costume. Child number 2 was going to be home in just over an hour. Barney? Lost in some wing of our town house. Seriously, where was he. Eventually, he came to me and said he was taking our mutt ( and I use that in the most affectionate way) for a walk. It was, after all over 20 degrees Celsius outside.
Well FINE then..there goes all hope of anything 'fun' or even having a private discussion until Monday. Pfft. Huff. -What?- OH.... here comes Distancing Dixie and Defiant Debbie skipping down the road, and Submissive Sally? pushed into the ditch. Sigh.
Major pout on. Get it together Wilma. Nope- didn't happen. Barney left for his walk and I stewed...and then SHOCKING...tears ( again!). Well THIS time I'm not even going to think about it! Nope I'm in a temper tantrum and I'm not going to talk myself out of it! ( Not such a great plan. I don't recommend it. It feels horrible, once the dust settles). So there I was fuming because it feels so much better than being disappointed. BTW before ttwd, I wouldn't have cared where Barney was, as long as he wasn't bugging me.
Barney came back well before his projected arrival. He sat down to talk to me. My attitude didn't improve. We talked about my exercising and my list for the day. I told him I hadn't made one. HA! Take that Mr. I didn't even notice HoH. ( again, DO NOT go this route). Eventually after what can only be described as a 5 year old temper tantrum, Barney said,
" Alright that is it, let's go"
"No . _________ is going to be home in like 10 minutes."
" Yeah well I don't want to wait all weekend"
" Oh well" ( I know..I know...right?)
With that he left and sat on our front step-probably trying to calm down, so as to NOT kill his wife. I returned to my sewing- actively not giving it any thought. Child #2 returned home wondering why Dad seemed so sad on the front step. WONDERFUL work Wilma. You're a real prize. They went off to shoot some hoops. I stayed behind and, wait for it.....cried.
When he returned, I apologized to Barney. In person too! Yay Wilma..no letters, but big girl words! I told him that I was so excited for our day off together, and disappointed how the day turned out. I told him that the way he was reacting to me this week was very confusing. I expressed that it was just as hard for me as it was for him ttwd. That I sometimes feel like I am giving something he doesn't want.
He reassured me that this was not the case. He said he could understand that his actions in the past week would be confusing to me. He apologized for letting things get this far without some sort of action.
I said I balked at his threat to spank me because I wasn't sure he wanted to actually do it. Perhaps I was manipulating the situation again- to which I received this reply
" Oh I wanted to spank you alright."
He said the idea of it was not something he was completely comfortable with, but he was more than willing to carry this through. He believes it is important. (yikes).
We went to our party Friday night. He was the belle of the ball. All the women loved his costume. He even danced! I too had fun, but not as much as he did. I, ( get this, you're going to love this) was advice girl. Seriously, people kept coming up to me with their problems. This one guy in particular kept cornering me! Even friends remarked, ' What was with the guy in the suit? Stalking you" I know right? If he only knew who he was seeking advice from ! Truth is, in my younger,
When we finally fell into bed that night, I ( pumped up with liquid courage) asked Barney
" Um, are you going to spank me on Monday?
" oh, okay"
" Don't worry about it right now okay ?"
OH YEAH SURE!!! ...well he did make me a little distracted *blush*
Party number 2 was a GREAT time. Once again Barney's costume was a HUGE hit. I had to explain mine to some people who didn't know me. As for the one's who knew, they loved it too! I absolutely adore the people we were with. I laughed, and laughed, and made people laugh until tears were down our faces. I am so fortunate to know so many wonderful, TWISTED people!
I am not as anxious about tomorrow as I should be, mostly because I have never experienced what I apparently am going to. I have been trying to not think about it. I know that this is long overdue, and this is what we agreed on. Barney has still been his happy go lucky self, until I slip it into the conversation. He then stands a little straighter, his voice seems to deepen, and well, then I change the subject again.
I think I'll just concentrate on remembering how much fun I had last night. Oh and fill out my list and EXERCISE!<- Too little too late, but it is the start of a new week, and I don't want to give Mr. HoH any more reasons to 'exercise' his right arm.